the craving<\/p>\n\n\n\n
hits<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m completely<\/p>\n\n\n\n
unprepared<\/p>\n\n\n\n
for<\/p>\n\n\n\n
the visceral<\/p>\n\n\n\n
impact<\/p>\n\n\n\n
it has on <\/p>\n\n\n\n
my body.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I feel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I feel the longing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I feel the yearnings<\/p>\n\n\n\n
of my heart.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I feel the near<\/p>\n\n\n\n
stupor of my <\/p>\n\n\n\n
brain,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and when she\u2019s<\/p>\n\n\n\n
eventually able<\/p>\n\n\n\n
to find language,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
she\u2019s deeply disappointed,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and quite mortified<\/p>\n\n\n\n
by the silly teenage<\/p>\n\n\n\n
notion<\/p>\n\n\n\n
that I seem to <\/p>\n\n\n\n
be<\/p>\n\n\n\n
stuck in.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am missing<\/p>\n\n\n\n
my <\/p>\n\n\n\n
boyfriend<\/p>\n\n\n\n
because I\u2019m <\/p>\n\n\n\n
listening to <\/p>\n\n\n\n
a playlist,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
really just a few <\/p>\n\n\n\n
songs,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
that he curated,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
for me,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
no for us.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Grow the fuck up<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and face the everyday<\/p>\n\n\n\n
reality of an<\/p>\n\n\n\n
adult woman<\/p>\n\n\n\n
driving to the office<\/p>\n\n\n\n
to get stuff done,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
she screams, <\/p>\n\n\n\n
while my heart<\/p>\n\n\n\n
simply shrugs<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and <\/p>\n\n\n\n
turns up the volume<\/p>\n\n\n\n
on the car radio.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tears are perfectly<\/p>\n\n\n\n
fine<\/p>\n\n\n\n
at 6.02am.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
~Lu<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
the craving hits I\u2019m completely unprepared for the visceral impact it has on my body. I feel. I feel the longing. I feel the yearnings of my heart. I feel the near stupor of my brain, and when she\u2019s eventually able to find language, she\u2019s deeply disappointed, and quite mortified by the silly teenage notion […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_s2mail":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[27,9,18],"tags":[7,14,5,13,8],"class_list":["post-191","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-connection","category-loss","category-love","tag-awe","tag-new-love","tag-possibility","tag-sadness","tag-uncertainty"],"yoast_head":"\n