and today
it\u2019s
hard.
It blisters and
there are
thick, heavy tears
hurting the back
of my throat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m learning
something new, and
it\u2019s excruciating.
I feel so
small.
So insignificant.
And exposed to
everyone else\u2019s
Insta-life version
of this.
I\u2019m failing dismally.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
That makes
me
sad. And
angry. And
confused.
And heartsore.
And as
far as I
can tell,
there\u2019s no way
to miraculously solve
this.
The only way
is
through.
This I know.
Yet I winge and
whine and
wish it
was different.
I really want
to
learn this
thing.
To be great
at it,
to shine.
Only I\u2019m not.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And for
today, this
will have
to
be
enough.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
~Lu<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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