I feel

and today
it’s
hard.
It blisters and
there are
thick, heavy tears
hurting the back
of my throat.

I’m learning
something new, and
it’s excruciating.
I feel so
small.
So insignificant.
And exposed to
everyone else’s
Insta-life version
of this.
I’m failing dismally.

That makes
me
sad. And
angry. And
confused.
And heartsore.
And as
far as I
can tell,
there’s no way
to miraculously solve
this.
The only way
is
through.
This I know.
Yet I winge and
whine and
wish it
was different.
I really want
to
learn this
thing.
To be great
at it,
to shine.
Only I’m not.

And for
today, this
will have
to
be
enough.

~Lu