There is
a place, I
go to, or rather
that I am often
trapped inside, inadvertently
and with
little hope
of escape.
My mindscape
is often
terrifying.
Cutting me
off at
the knees,
and leaving a
frightened, pale
and insipid
version of
me,
on full display,
to be goaded
and ridiculed
by all I
meet.
Yet in this
lies the
crux of the matter also…
For these terrors
only ever play
out on the
canvas of my
very own mind.
And the tragedies
and disappointments
chronicalled there, near-never
see the light
of day.
Yet the pull of that frightening
place, where one
is dragged to
so swiftly and without
recourse, is profoundly
debilitating.
So today I
chose to go the
other
way, and ask:
“So what then?”
which seems
to have melted
large gaps
in the walls of
my particular dungeon.
Quick to the challenge,
I stepped things up
a notch
with: “I’ve lived through worse…”
bringing down
my backbreaking sword
with a final:
“I’ll figure it out when I get there,
I’ve done so before…”
I sipped my
coffee
and waited.
Those mental walls did
not rebuild
themselves.
I sat in the sunshine,
remembering
who I mostly
am, for she
is glorious, just
like you.
~Lu
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